Patient
My dilated pupils disperse-
Red lights spell out: Emergency
What version of me have they unearthed?
Forever fucking questioning me
“Sir, how much alcohol have you consumed?”
(Just lock me away in a padded room)
“How many pills did you take?”
(Not enough for fuck sake)
“So, how long have you been suicidal?”
(Oh, just every once in a while when I fake a smile)
“What provoked you to try and take your life tonight?”
(Once upon a time: I used to be...alright)
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It's as if time has been removed-
And motion is nonexistent
Invisible voices echo and bloom-
I'm at home, in solitary confinemen
Legacy
I dreamt of shallow space...within time
And deep darkness...within light
A wordless prayer that seeps into the sky
And all that can be heard is a faint...cry
I dreamt of relentless winters on the Sun
And scorching summers on the Moon
A universe that is waiting for another dawn
Yet...I'm the only one that is waiting for...you
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Re-sacrifice my dependence
Clothe me with confidence
An indestructible vortex
Reinforce my flawed differences
Reverse the hopelessness
Amplify the celestial silence
Defy the faithless
Construct a harsh tolerance
Obliterate my ignorance
Create an immortal balance
Revitalize my endurance
Strength can't be painl
Re-creation
The nothingness that once reigned
Ignited in colors
The shades of depression rearranged
Reality in rainbows
The war of voids grew faint
Desires finally conjured
The space between the estranged
Reversed humanity's rapture
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When you took my hand
The liberty was yours
Once again- I stand
Intentions are pure
There's no secrets behind secrets
And no shadows of shadows
You're sincerity's advocate
Making promises that will forever echo
You rained through me
So the petals of my soul bloomed
I created an infinite dream
Where I'm always beside you
Your breath reincarnates memories
Afloat on the passions of yesterday
Tasting the merc
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I practice an art-
Of self-healing
You left a trail of scars-
That I'm erasing
A journey that remains endless
As long as life is aligned with time
Another day presents more challenges
And I endure another hard-earned night of sighs
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I believe in destiny
And the justified possibilities
I put faith in fate
So I have reasons to get through pains
I abide by hope
So I'll never again let go
I indulge in dreams
And the infinite realities
I've walked through fires / I've lost many desires
Each path weakens / Each tear strengthens
I've watched countless storms / I've survived every breakdown
My soul's shape reforms / New l
Paralyzed
The words phrased-
I become stone
The wounds made-
I abandon hope
I shatter inside-
None left behind
Your voice incites-
I'm left...petrified
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I nurtured the very core
Of your presence
Until I couldn't anymore
You left me in a cold silence
I had nothing to cling on to
While I tried over and over to mourn
But there was no trace of you
So my regrets were torn and then reborn
Your footprints mock / My voice locks
Infesting my thoughts / My heart floods
An infinite loop of forgiveness and betrayal
I couldn't pick up the pieces of our memories
The knife in my back could only tremble
While I felt tremors attack my body
I trusted
Ashes: Forever
It's a different kind of panic
When last resorts are no longer a choice
Invisible infernos become an epidemic
Taking me far past the breaking point
It's beyond right or wrong
For someone to endure these moments
It's a cruel sensation to become undone
And to be left alone to face the on-coming carnage
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Ashes burn / Hopes condemned
Ashes burn / Life's lament
Ashes fall / Reaping shame
Ashes fall / Forgiveness fades
Piece by piece- No cure for the cursed
Belief after belief- No relief for the impure
Tear by tear- No rain for the inflamed
Prayer after prayer- No shelter for the estranged
Ashes scatter / Memories freed
Ashe
Abandon: Sobriety
Temptation destroys the very fabric of controlled rejection
And I yearn for a stupor salvation
This thirst is my disgraceful halation
And every shot sends me deeper into oblivion
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My morals got caught up in warfare
Defining the worst side of my personality
These dark circles around my eyes lead nowhere
My irises are the source of frailty
Isolation is the only resort
The final stand against another taste
Just until my courage is immersed
And then another hit awaits
Bottom of a bottle / Bevel of a needle
A sacred betrayal / Spiraling into denial
My thoughts phase from numbness
Temporarily freed from reality
Resentme
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I'm left dreamless
Every single night...
I remain sleepless
With bloodshot eyes...
You race through my mind
Images that I can't stand
And time after time
You're depleting my strength
A plague of mixed emotions
My tears act like quicksand
I'm torn in every direction
By these encrypted feelings I don't understand
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I wish my heart would stay hidden
And so far away from you
To confess would be forbidden
And everyday I would barely get through
I've fallen so low / Into the darkness below
By the sorrow of my soul / It's consuming me whole
There is no escape
From whats bottled up inside
My desire for you won't ever fade
Unfazed
Hardships are a token
There's so many scars
I'm proud to be broken
I'm a living shard
I live off of regret
Breathing in certainty
My life feeds on suspense
It's almost considered a dependency
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People break down sometimes
That's an understatement
Pretending to walk the line
While hope is in fragments
Can you imagine-
Enduring another lifetime
Even a fraction-
Of the pain I called mine?
I reach for the sky / Sweat falls in the fire
Worshiped halos remain shy / Shall I wait here forever?
People say we are all loved
That's nothing but a lie
Belief and trust become lost
That's the only truth I will testify
The gates will stay closed